Gush of Nostalgia

I know there’s trees
I know there’s sand
I know there’s grass
Is it somewhere in the past?
~MGMT~

Consumed by a sudden gush of nostalgia as the prospect of a future is threatened by an irrevocable past. The present being history in the making, and history being the potter of a defining future.

In running from the realities of what has already happened, the future becomes nothing more than a fanciful skin covering the skeleton of a past already lived. Life being no more than history redefining itself, elucidating every rationalization of infinite possibilities.

Possibilities. Dreams. Future. Ideals. Goals. All but whimsical words invented by oneself to assemble and collocate the mistakes of the past, and relive them in a different image, different light, different setting. There is nothing more than what already is – everything in between being the simplicity of understanding and perception of an innovative conception.

Love. Hope. Happiness. Security. Stability. The beauty in a mundane commonplace which most define as “life.” Beauty lies in the ability to acknowledge and appreciate the presence of such luxuries. The luxury of waking up in the morning, knowing that no man is an island. The luxury of having a reason to wake up. The luxury of anticipating the comeliness of what each new day brings.

Nostalgia. Contemplation. Truth. Fear. Avoidance. Words designed to interpret the inexplicable, the twilight zone in which we subconsciously access the sublunary elements in life. The abstractions of an extraordinary phenomena in which science meets the metaphysical. Where knowledge and wisdom compromise. Where the conscious meets the subconscious. Where the circular motion in which we run ceases. The place in-between, where all the answers can be found, but none of the right questions are ever asked.

Primal. Past. Present. Future. Infinity. The endlessness of time, stretching both ways. For if time never ceases to exist, thus there was no beginning. For if there were a beginning, there would inevitably be an end. The enigmas of the universe, stretching far beyond time, leaving the concept of time a triviality contrasted with the vastness of infinity. Everything around being the “bigger picture,” the real issue. Life in itself is meaningless without rational explanation – yet rational explanation in itself being the simplification of a seemingly phantasmagorical truth.

Everything that is: every atom, every molecule. Every noun, every fact. Every substantiated realization, every abstract sensation. To stand and revel in the surfaces of life, the momentary pleasures which one mistakes as “truth” and “reality.” To watch our lives from the present, stretching our lifeline (now being the pinnacle, birth being the starting point) into the potentials of an infinite future. Our lives, our minute issues and minuscule moments of happiness, just happens to be, as the infinities of the universe surround us, and pass by (however slowly) in comparison to the pace of everyday life.

Adding a definitive meaning to life is all but undermining the limitlessness of something greater, something unfathomable. Whether the rationalization being religion or science – to add a written account for what was meant to be experienced is denying the fact that there are questions meant to be unanswered.

Everything has an explanation, but not everything has an answer. The only truth in any controversy is that we, as humans, cannot accept the fact that the universe is larger than life. We as humans create religion and science to define what was meant to be lived: to add meaning to what was already meant to be. To add relevance to what is already relevant.

And what is larger than life is not meant to be explained.
It’s meant to be experienced.

When busy streets a mess with people
Would stop to hold their heads heavy?
When pleasure moments hung before the takeover
The sweeping insensitivity of this still life.
~Imogen Heap~

Hobbes’ State of War

A morning of understanding the basic idea of Hobbes’ theory on man’s natural state being a state of war resulted in an incessant usage of brains vs. writing skills. As I have come to conclude, not only is human nature flawed, but because of our unwillingness to accept that we are equal at the core (we are glory seeking – thus, we want to be “different” and “special”) we are in constant conflict – constant matter in motion – with self and society as it is.

Man is egotistic, focusing on the unquenchable needs of self before the desires of others, and with our naturally conflicting and competitive nature, we are in constant battle for resources and space. Not only are our materialistic desires incessant, but essentially our desire for freedom becomes the driving force for conflict. This, and our diffidence (lack of trust in others) causes us to meet our own gains rather than risk loss via means of co-operation.

Anyway, this is just what I studied this morning. Obviously I have the rest of the day ahead of me. History today, and International Relations tomorrow, hopefully.

But as for current affairs…

  • The UN introduced reducing the amounts of female circumcision in Africa (despite this being a part of the culture) but has resulted in 65% reduction since 2007.
  • The IPCC was off by 22 years in predicting when the Himalayan Mountains would melt: Global warming is still a controversy, and unproven.
  • Debates regarding whether economic improvement will result in climate change – but ambiguity regarding whether the change is “good” or “bad” results in unending and rhetorical arguments.
  • China over-reacted to America’s selling 6-Million worth of military artillery weapons
  • North-Korea liberated the Christian Prisoners on suspicious terms, possible brainwashing involved
  • China is North-Korea’s greatest ally; Russia is China’s greatest ally; the Middle East is Russia’s Greatest Ally. If the world were to break into a Third World War, the Western nations have little to fend for.
  • Hong Kong’s continued fight for democracy is succeeding by far – however, because of the little capitalism that HK is built on, there is a chance that if HK becomes fully democratic, China will react negatively and HK risks another post-97′ decline.
  • South African President Jacob Zuma’s fifth wife was recently arrested for drug smuggling.
  • Haiti’s death toll reached 200,000 (the first estimate)

That’s all for now. More updates to come soon.

As a matter of fact
There’s no turning back.
~ATB~